In the 1992 film A League of Their Own, a film about the creation of an all-female baseball league that was created in the US during WWII whilst many men were off fighting in Europe, Tom Hanks’ character (used to coaching young men but now adjusting to a team full of athletic young women) bellows at one of his young players who has not taken to his coaching style particularly well— ‘There’s no crying in baseball!!!!’.
Whilst playing on a dangerous gender stereotype of the ‘overly emotional female’ which I don’t want to perpetuate (all genders are emotional beings for goodness sake!), this moment in the film occasionally pops into my head. For in moments where either the demands of my job or the topic of my study (political violence, injustice and peacebuilding) strike a particular chord—I do occasionally become emotional. And although I have had (and still have) wonderfully supportive colleagues of all genders who act like ordinary (emotional) human beings on a regular basis, there are times where I become paranoid that any displays of emotion on my part will be met with a Tom Hanks-esque response! I then attempt to quickly push those emotions aside and get back to my rational, objective status quo.
Now of course, our profession is open to discussions of many emotions ‘on the job’: fatigue induced exasperation (ie I had to pull an all-nighter to get that conference paper in. This was one of those 70 hour work weeks. Thank god it is the end of term! I need a break!); student or colleague induced frustration (ie why don’t they just read the syllabus! Why are we dedicating another staff meeting to this issue?’ Why haven’t they responded to my emails on the proposed policy changes!) and last but not least moments of joy (ie My article/book/chapter got accepted! I received a huge research grant! My grad student landed a tenure track job!).
However, in many (if not most) situations, emotion is frowned upon in our profession. We are expected to ‘objectively reflect and analyze’ in our research and act rationally (or even coldly) in the face of specific policy changes that affect our jobs. This focus on objectivity and rationality that is so central to our jobs is transmitted to our classrooms, where we encourage student to focus on the empirics of a situation, not be clouded by personal opinions or normative statements of what ‘should be’. Students are welcome to opinions, but these must be prefaced by an objective, verifiable set of rational arguments. Emotion, if permitted at all, must first be mediated by these non-emotional filters. And of course, in most cases and in most situations this is perfectly fine and desirable, but what are the limits of this strict adherence the rational/unemotional academic mode?
Without going into too much detail, the stark reality of the limits of the non-emotional approach to knowledge, service and leadership that are dominant in our profession came up and smacked me across the face a few weeks ago. A deeply personal situation intersected with my own field of research and teaching (peace studies specifically and politics more generally). Every cold hard fact and every abstract theory that I have used over the course of my scholarly career failed me. Failed me in terms of my ability to understand the situation I found myself in, failed me in terms of understanding what could be done, what should be done to resolve the injustice and suffering that political violence creates. In that moment I felt that my life’s work and the knowledge I would be imparting to my students in the coming days and weeks was insignificant—perhaps even counterproductive in the way it tried to quantify, qualify, explain and examine in a detached, objective or ‘rational’ way.
My reaction came as a shock to me. I have studied and spent time in conflict affected zones for over a decade. I have met and interviewed countless individuals who have experienced the worst that political violence has to offer. I have felt with my own hands, seen with my own eyes and heard with my own ears the realities of war. The problem(?), I now realize, is that in all of these cases I then filtered my experiences through an objective set of frameworks (liberalism, hybridity, agonism) via accepted social scientific methods (interviews, coding, software packages). In doing so, it appears that I was able to shelter myself from much of the reality of what I had learned—the emotional, the struggle, the tangible and often unresolvable injustices that human beings are experiencing daily. Self preservation some might say, shoddy scholarship in the sense of failing to capture a significant reality of the situation I might say!
The collision of what was fundamentally a personal issue with my professional life (and in particular, how and what I teach) led to tears. Yep, I said it. I cried about my research, cried about my teaching, cried about the tangible situation in front of me, all together, all wrapped up into one. Perhaps this will make me seem ‘silly or weak’ in the eyes of some students or colleagues. So be it.
But I know I’m not alone. Talking to others and engaging with my students, it is clear to me that learning is often deeply emotional. I watch my students, international and domestic, struggle with heightened emotions when the topics we are covering force them to consider sometimes uncomfortable truths about their own countries, or what they were taught as children. I watch my students respond emotionally to comments made in class that are occasionally based on racial or gender stereotypes, that go against their core beliefs or personal sense of ethics. I watch students try and find the words to express their opinions only to find that the academic language I have provided them with often fails to sufficiently capture the core of their debate and their concerns (which are often deeply personal and emotional and therefore easily dismissed as ‘subjective’–which seems to have become quite a pejorative term)
Education is not therapy, but the issues we explore with students (in all disciplines) often evoke an emotional response. We can ignore them, wish them away and consider emotions as ‘un-academic’. But I believe we do so at our own peril as it detaches their understanding of the ‘topics’ we are teaching our students from how these topics are actually experienced by the vast majority of the population. If we want students to understand anything, from identity politics to the science behind vaccinations, I believe we must equip them with the tools and language to understand the emotional responses and realities that these topics evoke in the general population. Otherwise, the knowledge that students gain will only allow them to uncover part of the story in their future professional lives and limit their ability to enact change that is meaningful and desired by large segments of the population (for whom issues of conflict, identity, decisions on drug treatments and investment options are not merely academic puzzles, but lived realities with tangible consequences)
I’ve no easy answer to how we deal with emotions in the classroom. I feel like our current default is to shy away from these. When students get emotional, we try to ‘bring it back to the theory/concept/framework’– I know I certainly do this. In future iterations of my classes I hope to draw on and introduce more readings on political psychology, emotions in IR and the growing literature on aesthetics as starting points. It will certainly top my summer reading list and goals for course renewal for the next academic year.